I haven't posted in awhile,but I really had to do something today so I thought I'd write some on hear(although I don't think anyone reads it)this is just another day alone for me,seems like I've been alone most of my life,well I was married for several years but she had a habit of forgeting where she lived when she had a drink or two,and around any holiday that was almost always,we got a divorce about 12 or 13 years ago and are actually friends now,she just remarried a couple of months ago,my son lives with her,she has family to help take care of him since I'm not able to do it,I can't pick him up to put him in his wheelchair,hell I do good to take care of myself,what I need is to find a roommate,then move into a real house,but with the depression,panic attacks,MS,plus the back surgeries and hernia surgeries I've had,and need to have that probably won't happen either,and I certainly have nothing to offer a woman anymore,so I'll probably spend the rest of my life alone,the Grandkids stop by for about 5 minutes every other month or so,and I see the lady at the bank every month when I deposit my disability check,so yes,my life really SUCKS.

This will be my last post for awhile,see on top of everything else the Lord has decided I should have M.S. as well,so tommorrow I have to go into the hospital to begin treatment,I've known about it for years but it has finally moved into the 3rd and final stage so its 3 shots a week for a year and then we will see what comes next,I hope everyone on the site find exactly what they seek,and thank you for being brave enough to share your lives with the world thru this blog,be good to yourselves,peace out,notagain49