The post Office has managed to lose my disability social security check,so its going to be a wonderful few days until it can be replaced,thats my life,if it can go wrong it will,later

If you start reading this please read it all before you Blast me ok? I woke up this morning Mad,I mean really MAD!!! No I didn't have any reason to be mad,but for me thats a good thing,at least I'm feeling something and it has been awhile since I have really felt anything.I've been up for about 6 hours now and my mood changed from being mad to wanting to do something,anything,I have cleaned my room,even the ceiling,the bathtub.I know this is really boring but hey this is my life and it doesn't get any better.I have a question,now I know that none of my blog friends would know the answer to this from personal experence but some of you might have friends that have done this so I want to know why Women CHEAT? I bring this up because before I became ill I looked into some of those online dating places,I didn't remember joining them but I don't remember alot of things.I have been getting messages from married women,in my entire life I only dated one married woman and only until I found out she had a husband then I ended it,so back to the question,if a woman isn't happy with her husband why not just leave,why cheat,and if she had to cheat why with someone like me? Ok its check day so I have to go now but I'll be back,soon,have a great day friends,Mike

I wasn't feeling well when I was on here Saturday but then I never feel very good so I just thought it was like any other day but as the day went on I felt worse,Sunday and Monday weren't any better so I finally got to see my Dr. on Tuesday he kept me there all day,had me come back on Wednesday and again today so I got to spend most of my week in the Doctors office getting blood drawn,x-rays taken and peeing in cups,the good news is I feel better.Oh and it will be 3 to 4 weeks before I know the results of all those tests,and I don't have any idea what he even thinks it is(and before I get the usual crank comments,no I have NO STD'S)I trust my Doctor but he doesn't like to tell me anything until he is sure and then he doesn't always tell,he put me on this one medication and told me it was to help me sleep but I looked it up online and its for something else completely.He has been my Dr for years and he really knows me so he doesn't tell me very much.I asked him once if I was going to die would he tell me and he said NO,if he knew there was nothing I could do to change the outcome he wouldn't tell me but thats ok,I don't think I'd want to know.I didn't intend this to run so long,I just wanted to say hello to everyone and when I get some rest I'll try and catch up on my reading and writing,thanks for worring Cin,I hope everyone is doing GREAT!notagain49

I really like rainy days,the ones where it looks cold and dreary out,I had a fireplace in my old house and it was great when it was cold and raining to sit by the fireplace,but that was years ago.I talked to my Son yesterday for about an hour,he is doing good,my soon to be ex-daughter-in-law that bailed on him after his accident has cancer,well she had an operation last year for ovarian cancer it seems its back and spread to her breasts,I don't really like the lady because of all the pain she caused my Son and Grandkids but I would never want anyone to have to go through that.I am thinking about moving to Arkansas to be closer to my son and my grandkids,I have nothing to keep me here.I don't really care for it up there but I do miss them,so it might be worth it.I just live in one room here,I could do that up there just as easy and who knows I might even meet a woman.........ok I'm back to reality now,I hope everyone has a great week-end,and I'm trying to think of something I'm good at for the people that suggested it.I was really good at my job,I still receive emails from companies wanting me to work for them but I can't do that anymore,I don't think I was ever good at anything else.I hope everyone is having a great week-end.notagain49