When I was working I did HVAC sheetmetal work on Military Bases all over the country so I stayed in motels but I knew I had a house to come home to,the last full year I worked I only spent 3 nights at home but it was there,then I sold my house and little farm and planned to buy another one,but the accident happened,I had all the back surgeries then my son was hurt and the money went for bills and just living,anyway I'm living in a motel the reason I ask the question is I don't remember it being so difficult when I was working,this is usually a quite place but on week-ends we get all the week-end lovers,either married and can't go home or something so I get to spend all night listening to the headboards hitting the walls next door on both sides of me,the ones upstairs are making so much noise I don't know if the bed is going to come thru the ceiling or what,I know what everyone is thinking I just feel this way because I'm not getting any,and that may be true,I probably would feel so bad if I wasn't alone all the time,but I still would find all the noise anoying,for those of you suffering from deep depression will understand and those that aren't I'm not smart enough to explain it,I really hate being alone but can't force myself out of the room to meet a woman if I had anything to offer a Woman which I don't anymore,and even when I did I could never do the one night stand thing,I miss the sex,but I miss alot more,sorry this ran so long,just more ranting from a depressed mind,whats left of it,be good to each other,and those of you that have someone hold them really close,later,notagain49

Does anyone know where they got this thing in the Olympics called Curling?I tried to watch some of it tonight and what I was One Lady Pushed this Heavy Looking Piece Of Steel and these other Women have Brooms and they are Sweeping there ASSES OFF,I mean these chicks could sweep Texas Stadium in about 3 minutes,now I know I'm just an old country boy,and not very smart but WHO THE HELL THOUGHT THIS UP? I wish I knew how to make a list,I don't know enough about computers to make it move down to the next line,I can only type straight,I didn't know how to make another paragraph until one of the other bloggers told me,but the other thing I wanted to say is NEVER TELL YOUR SCRINK THE TRUTH,figure out what they want to here and tell them,if you don't know what they want to here you can GOOGLE scrinks and it gives you lots of ideas,because of my depression Social Security makes me go see a scrink every 3 months(of coarse they don't pay for it,cost me $300)and the last time I saw him I was feeling really down,and like I've told everyone on here Ihave a hard time leaving the house anyway so I explained all this to the scrink,I recieved a copy of a letter today that he sent to my Doctor,he thinks I should be locked up,he said I prestent a "HAZARD to myself",so if for any reason you are forced to see a scrink,LIE,LIE,LIE,blow sunshine up there ass until they get rainbow eyes,I've only seen 2 scrinks in my life and both of them are crazyer than I was even on the worst day of my life,thank you for reading my blog,and thanks to the ones that comment,I know I'm the most boring guy alive,but thanks for reading anyway,and a message to "antwerpt" I don't think thats physically possible,and how did you get my email address?later,notagain49

I posted a story about my family earlier today,after reading some other blogs and thinking about it(as well as a couple of comments)I went back and erased it.Maybe someday. later,notagain49

I post or rant or whaterer on hear but I don't have the guts to tell ALL of my story,not like some of the people do,some of the people on this site can write about there sex lives,family history or anything,most of my rants are about politics,or my depression or something else that only lets me hide.I'm not smart enough to do the 100 things list,the only way I can write is like this,I don't know how to make it into a list but if I could I would have to list things like,I'm afraid to answer my own phone,I keep all the lights off most of the time,when the people next door get loud I hide in the bathroom,the only time I leave my room is to see my Doctor or when I run out of food and even then I go without eating for days,as long as I can before I can force myself to go to the store,all this from a guy that just 4 years ago was in charge of building a 12 story hospital,I had over 100 people working under me and I was making a 6 figure salary,now I'm nothing,nobody,just another old man,alone and waiting to die,I'm not writing this for sympathy,justto get it out of me,out in the light where I can't seem to go anymore,be good to each other,Mike

It was great to recieve more nice comments than rude ones,but I guess thats because I didn't write about our idiot president,(OK just one small comment)isn't the 71 billion he is asking for now the same amount he just took away from the elderly and poor?ok,I'm off my soap box,I have voted in every election since I was old enough to vote,followed politics in the paper and online but NEVER,in my lifetime has there been a President that has divided this country the way Dubya has,and it will take years and years to just get back what he has taken from the poor and elderly,even after Dubya and his gestapo are in prison,and all there rich friends have slipped back into there holes with the tax payers billions it will take years.Am I the only one that doesn't think Dubya is really in charge of anything?Tricky Dick is the muscle behind it but the brains are somewhere hidden really deep behind the scenes.Sorry just rambling again,did you know you could check online and see who voted for the cut in medicare and who didn't?Don't impeach,Imprison