OK,I'm sorry,it was just a bad joke,please don't write threatening emails,I'm depressed enough already.I just start out reading the blogs that I have in my favorites,and then I see other blogs listed in there favorites and it never ends,next thing I realize its daylight outside and I've spent the night on Blogstream,I think I am learning though,there are alot of people out there with some of the same troubles I have,fighting depression,bad health,I was really surprised to find out Women get lonely too! I mean none of the women I have ever known got lonely because they were never alone,they spent most of there time thinking of new way to torture the men that cared about them,but thats just the women that I have known,I have a friend that tells me there is another type of woman creature out there,I've just never been lucky enough to have one of those in my life,this is a new experence for me,and I'm really enjoying reading all the blogs,thanks

That would be to easy,ok I know I'll get threatening emails again but these Idiots that are supposed to be in charge of the U.S. are a joke,I read on "BRAD'S BLOG" that "Dubya" has his war machine working on plans to invade Iran as well as help Isreal destoy there enemies,it seems to me that just adds another lie to the thousands he has already told the public,he is pissed about a free election that didn't turn out the way he wanted,so if Texas votes all Demactat in 06 do you think "Dubya" will send in troups?AND WILL YOU PEOPLE STOP SAYING BUSH IS A TEXAN,HE IS FROM "MAINE",HE JUST ANOTHER YANKEE WITH A U-HAUL,MAYBE CHENEY DECIDED THERE TAX CUTS WON'T KILL THE ELDERLY AND DISABLED FAST ENOUGH SO HE DECIDED TO HELP OUT,THE MAN HE SHOT IS THE HEAD OF THE G.O.P. IN TEXAS,MAYBE HE TOLD THE VEEPEE SOMETHING HE DIDN'T WANT TO HEAR,ANYONE WANT TO GO HUNTING?YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO SHOOT BIRDS OUT OF THE AIR,THE ONLY WAY CHENEY COULD HAVE SHOT THAT MAN WAS IF HE WAS "POT" SHOOTING BIRDS WHICH IS AGAINST THE LAW,OF COARSE SO IS MURDER AND THEY ARE GETTING AWAY WITH THAT,ITS TO LATE TO IMPEACH,JUST IMPRISON!!!!!

First I want to Thank the people that answered my last question,one on my blog and a few on my email,I still don't understand but I now know more than I ever wanted to about that subject.

I recieved an email from my ex-wife last night and she explained to me that there wasn't room in her house for my son and grandkids,and her new husband didn't like them all being there so the have farmed my grandkids out,split them up with other members of her family,now I'm not blaming her for this,since my son is in a wheelchair and not able to do anything for himself she has her hands full,and my sons soon to be ex-wife is in jail again for drugs,I really can't do anything I spent what I had in savings when my son had his accident which is why I was actually homeless for a year before I recieved my disability social security,I lived in an old warehouse,I don't know what I expected her to do but it was still a shock to find out the kids were living in different places,my son is wanting me to move to Arkansas close to where they are but I don't know if that would be better or worse for them or me,my life sucks!

I have been reading in the news about all the different cases of grown men and women having sex with teenage kids,I can't understand what a grown man could possibly see in a teenage girl,what could they possibly know about sex,now this is just me thinking of coarse but I always enjoyed a woman that knew what she was doing,but I guess thats just me,one thing I know for sure,I have never seen anyone that was worth going to jail for,maybe for women it would be worth it,teenage guys would have more energy,but they are writing about this in the paper like this is something new,when I was in the 5th grade my teacher kept me after class for sex 2 or 3 times a week,and she was in her 30's,I guess the thing is no one ever called the cops,in fact this is the first time I've ever told anyone about it,but looking back on it now I don't think she should have been sent to jail for teaching me about sex,but if it had been a male teacher and a young girl,sure he should go to jail forever,and I don't know why I feel that way,maybe because I was always taught girls should be protected,if any of you have read my other postings you know I have a son,he's in his 30's now so I don't know how I would have felt if one of his female teachers would have done the same thing to him that happened to me,ok I'm rambling again,

The question was WHY,why would an adult want to have sex with someone underage,knowing if they did they are breaking the law and could end up in prison for the rest of their life,plus why would they want to be with someone that doesn't have any idea what they are doing?I don't know why but since there have been so many cases in the news I just wanted to know if anyone out there had an answer.I haven't had sex in years and probably never will again maybe thats why I can't understand this,maybe its the depression,with the depression and since I can't work anymore I have nothing to offer a woman,and I never could do the one night stand thing,but I really do someone knows the answer to the question so the next time I see a story on the news I can understand it and won't feel so stupid,be good to yourselves,

I had another night with very little sleep but I feel pretty good,its strange how something as simple as a kind word can change my entire day,I was reading other blogs last night and I found 2 that had my blog listed in "Blogs they like",now I know 2 isn't alot,and it could have been a mistake,maybe they hit the wrong button,but it made me feel better,I don't know why.Since I'm just rambling here another thing,I never realise how much I needed someone to need me until I wasn't needed anymore,another little secret,I have spent most of my life with a woman in my life that needed me,to steal from a Hank Jr song,"I've loved and been loved,but never at the same time",have a great day everyone,and say "Hi" to someone you don't normally say it to,you never know how the smallest things can really make someones day.Thank you for reading the rantings of a very depressed mind,I added some funny photo's,